Brie Spielmann

Hi, whats new?

This is what I sent to my boyfriend via wall posts on Facebook at 2am.

( love )


I love him. End of story.

I just went through and skimmed some of my previous posts over the (very few) years. I like to think that I have matured quite a bit, but no one ever really matures.
The other day my english teacher acknowledged me in the what the fuck are you on sort of sense. Usually she finds me to be rather intelligent compared to my classmates. Whom of which I can only describe to be dumber than a box of rocks, heh. But in all seriousness, some standard students have street smarts.. some don't even have that. Anyway- It went like any other day, after sleeping in Intermediate Algebra, I stumbled into English, complained about how cold it was to myself, then read what the agenda was for the day on the dry erase board. We were to be discussing peer pressure and our beliefs. I immediately told her that I believed in nothing, but nothing was something. I proceeded with how the imagery we see daily was just a silk screen in our peripheral vision. That everything was wrong and right at the same time, nothing mattered but everything was felt one way or another. She had me tell the whole class my theory.. some agreed, others made outbursts of saying I was on crack. That got a chuckle out of the class, which is what my classmate was aiming for. We then wrote about it and that's that.
Currently I am dating this wonderful boy named Nathan. He is sweet and charming, we argue a lot but not over our relationship. Most of it is us defending our friends or ourselves at work. Every time I get mad enough to brake up with him I can't and then he holds me and I am immediately putty in his arms. I don't agree with this and yet seemingly I don't have the will power to do anything about it. The relationship is going strong for 2 and a half months so far.. we are happy I guess.
Work is alright, I got my raise when I came back from San Francisco and am now about to get another 50cent raise when I am promoted to expo trainer or whatever.

I miss the days of holding my best friends hand and screaming out into the abyss of choppy water and cold air with music in the background. I need to go for a long walk somewhere new.

Can ya dig it?

Salutations-

I have not been keeping up with this in a very long time and you have the right to slap me for that. :(

I got my license on the 23rd of March; I don't drive as much as I thought I would. I take people home from school (which is really starting to piss me off when my friends ask if I can give their hoe a ride), I go to work, I get food and run errands. Don't do much hanging out. I really want to spend time with my pup though, take her to the beach n' all. Haven't been able to do that because I'm always working.

I have been wanting my parents around more often, more somy dad. All I eat is Crispers food.. a good meal is hard to come by. I just feel malnurished a lot these past few weeks.. quit smoking, picked it up even heavier than before again. Stress at work. Not really much to say.. about whats going on.

Any questions?

You've played Half Life.

This is a joke about Half Life 2! Which is a must get for me!

http://www.weebls-stuff.com/toons/headcrabs/

IN YOUR MYSPACE:

1) Is your display name from a song?: no
2) Do you have 100 or more friends?: yeah
3) Do you have pictures of yourself?: yep
4) Do you get 1-3 comments every day?: it depends
5) Do you have a song?: yes, Andrew Thompson is AMAZING!


WOULD YOU AND YOUR FRIENDS:

1) Sneak into a rated R movie?: my friends would, I wouldn't. But i did sneak into a movie with Jason
2) Sleep in the same bed?: Uhm.. if its a big bed sure.
3) Rob a bank?: If we didn't get caught.
4) Team up together and kill someone?: plans to jump this one emo kid at school are in effect as of Friday.

IN YOUR ROOM:

1) Do you have a wood floor or carpet?: carpet
2) Are your walls painted bright colors?: nope, white.
3) Do you have artwork hanging up on the walls?: yep
4) Do you have clothes on the floor?: yesh
5) Do you have stuffed animals?: yeah
6) Do you have a hidden stash of candy in your room?: yes


WOULD YOU EVER:

1) Would you ever sing a solo?: only when I am alone
2) Take an hour-long shower?: longer
3) Make a mean myspace for someone you hate?: could you even imagine having that many email addresses?
4) Spend all night on homework?: done it

DO YOU LIKE:

1) More than one person?: uhm..
2) Daisies?: they're alright.
3) To paint your fingernails?: not really
4) Music?: I love music, doesn't everyone?
5) Black raspberry ice cream?: uhm.. no
6) The beach?: in the winter
7) Cats?: i shnuggled wiff a kitten the other day!!!! ^_^

NOW:

Is your hair up?: nope
Is your phone right beside you?: whoa.. oddly enough my cell phone is- just took it out of my pocket.
Do you have a bf/ gf?: nope
Do you miss someone?: not as much as I should. but it doesn't matter to me anymore.
Do you wish you were somewhere else?: yes
Do you have plans for tonight?: photo shoot at Mount Dora ^_^
Are you wearing makeup?: no
Are you wearing chapstick?: nope, hate the stuff
Are you cold?: no
Are you tired?: no
Are you excited?: no
Are you watching TV?: no
Who's the last person you IMed?: I do not remember any aim conversation of two days ago.
Who's the last person that called you?: called Jessica back


PAST:

Recently done anything you regret?: still trying to figure it out
Ever lied?: yep
Ever trip over your own feet?: mhm
Ever had your nails done?: no
Ever thrown up because you cried so hard?: yes, that was an odd turn out.


LAST WEEK:

Have you cursed?: fuck yeah
Have you yelled at someone?: wanted to
Have you cried?: no comment
Have you called more than 3 people?: yeah
Have you IMed more than 3 people?: i dont remember

"Ay man... I nee'jew to feel me-"
"haha- what..?"
*makes weird motions with lips/eyes for ten seconds* "ha- head."





MAKE LAZY TIME!




PS- GOW2 comes out in March. ^_^

PS- I woke up at 9:30am today and went to school at 10. Congratulations to me who is slacking three days into the year.

The greatest pair of tits walked into Ultra Luce last night as AJ and I were leaving.

AJ: "What are you in love with them?!"

01- Algebra2 Ms Shelley
02- Journalism4 Mrs Burd
03- Anatomy Mr Miessau
04- Art 2D Ms Miller
05- American History Mr Morgan
06- English3 Mrs Lazar

My locker is downstairs G. Next to the main hallway.


AND HAPPY BIRFDAY TO MISS NORA LITVAK!

And to each two phrases.

What the fuck is wrong with you?

and

Fucking stop it.




Fuck plans.

My wrist hurts.
Covered for Mark last night.
Going in to my other job at 9pm tonight until probably 2am or later..
Work at Ultra Luce tomorrow at 3pm.
Might be working Tuesday, might not.

Turns out that even though I'm working a lot my mind still causes trouble.

PS. I fucking love my job!

I work at Ultra Luce Ristorante Italiano- I would suggest you come and try the food because it is awesome but you most likely wil not be able to pay for it. My parents said it cost themm $100 for the two of them. So.. yeah.

I have work Thursday (opening night), Friday, and I told Mark (co-food runner) that I'd take his shift for him today. I should have Sunday off, Monday I work, Tuesday and Wednesday I might be either working at my mothers shop doing screen printing or just nothing. So give me a call. I work Thursday and Friday again.. so just call and if I don't answer I am most likely working and we can't have anything with us.. so leave a message and I will call you back, alright?


Well.. off to go wash my work clothes. Then go to work.

My body hurts.

It's going to be okay.

Kinetix is open as of 2pm today.

I still don't want to believe it- it hasn't really hit me even as of now. I have been to KX and left flowers, I have cried over the news, I have talked to friends who also are grieving over this news.. and yet for some reason I think going to KX tomorrow I will see her smile as I walk in the door and she'll greet me as she always greeted me and I would ask her how everything was and then play a game or play Mad Libs with Mylett or someone..

A bitter feeling caused a tragedy.. A tragedy many are living with but don't want to believe probably.

For some reason I feel like she will still be there..
I know she'll still be there..
Her smile so sweet..
Her laugh so soothing..
She's not coming back but she is still there.


...why?

Man sought in shooting of couple


June 25, 2006

Oviedo -- Seminole County sheriff's detectives are looking for a man thought to have shot and killed his former girlfriend and wounded her current boyfriend outside her home early Saturday.

Darren J. Bridgeman, 34, is suspected of shooting Tracy Bennawit, 33, and Adam Strickland, 26, as they arrived at 2002 Willingham Road, Oviedo, a sheriff's spokesman said. A 14-year-old with the couple at the time was not injured.

Bennawit died at the scene. Strickland was airlifted to Orlando Regional Medical Center and was listed later in stable condition.

Bridgeman, who has a cleanly shaven head and speaks with a British accent, was thought to be armed and dangerous, the spokesman said. Anyone with information about Bridgeman can call the Sheriff's Office at 407-665-6650 or CrimeLine at 1-800-423-8477.

Greg K. Miller and Martin E. Comas of the Sentinel staff contributed to this report.




I heard it from Toler..
That's just not something you expect to hear- ever..

I wish I would of gotten to know you better Tracy- never did get to thank you for helping me on my Bio exam that day. Much love. RIP.

It is my public duty- to make this public.

This girl I thought was cute as all hell- watched the video and my jaw dropped. After it was over- I still have no idea what reaction I am suppose to have. Regardless- this is not me.
I AM NOW ON A QUEST TO FIND HER MYSPACE! SHE IS SOSILLY! God.. wow

My parents are mad at me because I decided to go shopping yesterday with David. I left the house with $86 around 3pm, came back home with $11 around 2am.
Ended up buying God of War, some throwing knives from the new asian store near Spencers, and a pretzel. Went to Best Buy afterwards and bought the second and third LOTR DVDs for my father for fathers day. Then went to Davids house, helped him clean his room, and then ate Wendys and went to a movie with his family, then we ate at Steak n Shake and then he took me home.

My mother bought my father two photo shop guide books for me to give to him- I hate when she does that because it's not really from me. So I gave him the two DVDs with it. I thought my dad might like the knives because they have a beautiful blade and color to them so I took them out and showed him.. he started with "Why did you get these?" and then mother decided I am no good with money. So she is forcing me to take the knives back and she took all of the money I had left. What she said was "You don't know how to spend wisely and next you're going to be asking for money to go eat dinner or play pool!" Taking away my money isn't going to help because now I have no money to get food or see a movie with.. once again. So of course I am going to have to ask for money.

She also hates my big chain necklace so I took it off and am wearing these thin ugly white gold flashy chains she bought for me..

A refined young lady is something I will never be, it's about time she needs to give up.

Whatever.. it doesn't really matter because I start school Tuesday and the only thing I'll need is a pen and paper. Which I already have.
If I end up not getting a free new phone Monday, oh well.


And mother just blamed me for the mess in the bathroom that the dogs did... Why the fuck would I rip up my own tampon and toilet paper and leave it all over the place?! But serisouly.. I think Chrissy ate half my old tampon.. which worries me a little.. but I am on the brink of laughter if it really happened.
Stupid dog.


PS. HAPPY BIRFDAY PAUL AND JORDAN!

It's humid in my house for some reason.
Heart hurts.
Need a hug.
Want to go play pool.

So I have been hearing all these people (James, David, and others) telling what games I might like. I mainly play GTA everyday- so an rpg game with no limits would be awesome. But I want something with a story to it and have it not be like an anime game- ya' know?
So I thought of what my interests are.. and looked up games with Mythology in them.. and came accross God of War, which I am planning to go check out pretty soon. The story seems completely topsy turvy but you get to battle creatures like the Cyclops, Medusa, and even Scylla! ^_^
Also David told me about the new game The Godfather which I would probably enjoy.

This week- weekend- whatever- has been pretty good. I slept last night finally and watched Chronicles of Narnia this afternoon. Today was just a lazy day for me which is always fun - did some laundry, made yum yums, and played video games.
I find that with Toler not in town at the moment.. and James and Rachel elsewhere.. leaves limited things to do. o.O


Today is James' birfday and I know I wont be able to get a hold of him because the boy turned 21. So I shall see him tomorrow I suppose.
HAPPY BIRFDAY JAMES


Might be house sitting this weekend again- fun stuff.
Drivers Ed starts this coming Tuesday. Then Arizona on the first of July till the fourth.. After all of that school kind of.. starts, I guess.
Forgive me for sounding lame- I miss school. I actually only miss Mrs Burd.. Lake Mary High can go to hell.


Take care kids.

HAPPY 666 KIDS!